I am going to start by saying I am not the most devout Christian. Caught your attention, didn’t I? There is a lot of room for me to grow and learn when it comes to God. …
Recently my entire family was faced with a pretty tough situation. Like all people we handle unexpected and challenging news differently. Some people prefer to be alone, while others can use the company! Some of us immediately turn to God while others may become angry with him.
I will admit, I was very angry at God!
Growing up or even as adults we may all have questions about certain things or may lack some sort of understanding. I believe that is natural & comes with growing as a Christian.
With this situation my questions were not for clarity, but rather blame and resentment. I know some of you will read this and think negatively about me & others may understand exactly where I am coming from! I have not lived a life of pink fairies and unicorns; I understand difficultly & hard times; I have experienced rough patches and have had bad days; So it is not at all that I cant take displeasing news – it is simply, nothing has ever hit me or affected me as hard as this recent situation!
It took some digging and deep searching to realize that I cannot place blame and be angry, especially not with God. There are always going to be things we don’t understand; Events will take place & we will look for a reasonable answer — but the truth is: there is hardly ever a text book answer to life. We all know God has a plan, but we must BELIEVE he has a plan! We have to truly open our hearts; we have to accept & trust what God has laid out for us. And when it is hard to grasp what is in front of you pray! We are so used to living life by seeing what is in front of us. Most of us are “see it and believe it” type of people. You cant be that way with your faith!
My God has provided me with way to many blessings for me to ever doubt he will take care of me. He has carried my family through some dark times; God has always loved and protected Us. He does not deserve anything less than my trust and love.
I will not lie and say I am at comfort with the situation, but I understand I can not worry myself. I understand that I must continue to pray and continue to thank him!
I decided to share this because I know that we all will go through some sort of situation(s) that will truly test our faith! I hope that someone will read this and know that you are not alone & remember to not give up. Open your heart & allow trust to enter it!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.”